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(no subject) [Jul. 8th, 2011|02:56 am]
 i more or less moved. bye bye livejournal hello wordpress.
but i'm keeping this place because there's so much memories here. i'll keep coming back here to read all my lame posts and laugh at them.

it's a new start all over again
 
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(no subject) [Jun. 21st, 2011|11:08 pm]
 things that will make me very happy right now

1. beer
2. friends who wont fuck you over
3. people who wont fuck you over
4. decorating my new room
5. shopping for furniture with good buddy
6. leaving
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2011|11:48 pm]
  hold it i'm not in UWA yet i just applied today, and they'll get back to me in 8 days or so. the guy said i'm more or less in, the only question is whether i get credit exemptions. which means i might graduate in two years or two years and a half's time with a bachelor of arts in psychology and political science ^^

i the nervous like kua only. application, check. bank loan, almost check. visa/airline/briefing, almost check. housing, almost check cause rosy got me a place near the psych building already she the fast or what. cod i'm so scared yet so blessed for everything i really feel so rushed and apprehensive but i just cannot wait i'm already mentally packing what to bring the winter wear to get the clothing racks and how many i may need for the amount of stuff i'm gonna bring over mur hur hur hur
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2011|11:45 pm]
i'm going to cry when i leave because i'll miss lis i'll miss joween i'll miss liy liy and santino and nabila and tan hui and ruru and jas and ruth and pearlyn and thomas and poonzi and zat and mackin and amanda and randee and bheem and sharon and janey and weers and muttu and blandon and mum and gorgor and everybody :'(((( i'll be almost alone there
 
 
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2011|12:37 am]


 it's been two weeks. and if things go my way, i'll be in australia in ten weeks. i'm scared but i want this so badly. no one knows how much i want to get out of here and be somewhere else. i gave up this hope for someone. and i'm not going to do it again. i want to be happy, i don't want to stop something i want for anyone else anymore.

i'll live alone. i'll live a pauper's life. i'll take walks at the beaches. i'll sit in a dinghy cafe and study my psychology notes. i'll scrimp and save. i'll cook and clean. i'll do this all alone and i will be very happy.

Daddy's plan for me.
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(no subject) [May. 11th, 2011|04:08 am]
 What is your Royal Wedding guest name? Start with either Lord or Lady. Your first name is the name of one of your grandparents. Your surname is the name of one of your first pets, hyphenated with the name of the street you grew up on.

Lady Say Choo Flake-32.

i feel quite depressed now i sound like a chinese alien.

 
 
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(no subject) [May. 6th, 2011|01:52 am]
 so lost.
i feel so guilty.
 
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(no subject) [May. 2nd, 2011|12:52 am]
 you're an idiot.
i'm an idiot.
we happened.
we had fun.

you need to stop.
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(no subject) [May. 2nd, 2011|12:45 am]
 

i'm scared
 
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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2011|12:40 am]


this little inner turmoil every night. unexplainable. every night without fail unless the breasts are over, or i'm out with friends, or supper with bils the neighbour. it hurts. i'm sad it happened. then i just look to Daddy and pray for forgiveness, pray for strength, pray that everything will be okay. its a really simple bible verse, we sing it every now and then back in school, but it makes a lot of impact.

“Your word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” – Psalms 119:105 
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(no subject) [Mar. 30th, 2011|05:12 am]


 life. teh tarik-ing one on one with the best neighbour-and-friend combos ever. travelling around singapore teaching speech and drama to kindergarten kids. sitting by the dingiest couch ever at cuscaden having 10-dollar beer jugs, chips and wings and non-stop talk sessions. sob-worthy romantic movies with a box of tissues on your lap at 3am in the morning. figuring out stuff for the online store. doing up lesson plans, preparing materials. lying on the couch in the middle of the night talking to you. impulse suppers and more beer. big hugs and lovely kisses from o aww. meeting up with all the girls for a bloody good dinner and old town white coffee because everybody is so busy working. more impulse tanning sessions at sentosa (where else) with a bloody good mint/melon cocktail. texting late into the night. upcoming bangkok trip.

life.
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(no subject) [Mar. 22nd, 2011|12:12 am]
 i'm creating this image in my head
everyday i just wait to enter this land
i keep having to wait longer and longer each day
i cant drift off, i just cant

will you still love me whole-heartedly and fully
knowing that i was once broken?
that i was once someone whole
without gunshots breaking this haystack

i want to promise you that i'll build myself up again
and i'll wait for you to find me, see me, love me
as who i truly am
i'm fixing these broken pieces right now
i'll wipe away these tears and i'll go on making everything right

i know i cant get back what i once had
but i will give you my heart as it once was

because i will work on trusting
i will work on loving
i will work on my patience
i will do whatever it takes to make you happy, okay?
this is my solemn promise

will you love me as i am now?
because i would find it so hard to love me
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(no subject) [Jan. 6th, 2011|04:24 pm]
 things i want to achieve this year.

1. earn my own keep.
2. host and facilitate my own drama programmes.
3. travel.
4. learn dancing.
5. open my own shop.
6. run my own shop.
7. figure out what i want to study next year.
8. live.
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(no subject) [Dec. 20th, 2010|10:34 pm]
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[Current Location |Singapore, Kampong Chai Chee, Tampines New Town]

My baby livejournal feels so neglected :( I shall update you my baby. Anyway, I'm sick. I'm down with gastric flu. Wanted to puke so badly during the Christmas lunch at work just now, and I just stood at the basin hoping to purge it out. It hurt so bad, my stomach. Anyway, doctor chua pressed my stomach and took my temperature and diagnosed me with gastric flu. And he gave me 4 different kinds of meds to take wtf. And if I don't feel better by tomorrow I have to go back.

And I slept till late dinner time, and got up to have dinner outside because my mum never cooks healthy stuff (huahuahua) and did some Christmas shopping.

4 days to Balikpapan. Can't wait.

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(no subject) [Dec. 13th, 2010|11:36 am]
 we cant go to new york. we dont have enough money.
fuck you, money. money ruins everything.
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(no subject) [Dec. 2nd, 2010|09:34 am]
 december's gonna be packed! facilitating workshops at work, holidays, parties, my birthday (!), and a short trip with boyfriend! YAYYYYY. cant wait cant wait. but of course there's still work. amanda and i are going to do our first drama workshop we formed a few weeks back, and after honors night we're having a lot of time to tie up loose knots. whoo cant wait. now i have to plan my christmas list for everyone especially one. teehee.

but of course in the midst of all these there's always the one we have to turn our eyes to, amidst the turkey and christmas presents and log cakes. its jesus christ-mas, not season's greetings. there's seriously some satan who's been creating all these seasonal stuff and santa claus and elves and gingerbreadmen to take away the true meaning of christmas. 

blessings everybody <3333
 
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(no subject) [Nov. 20th, 2010|01:31 am]
 when confused about personal life, eat icecream
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(no subject) [Nov. 3rd, 2010|10:05 am]
do you see a
lost child in the woods?
sharp brown twigs
those mud-splattered feet
pierces

like flesh to bones
like blood and gore
no one hears
those screams
no one hears

so much of the world
all at a time
to search for the one
to save
soft whimpers

like an umbrella to shelter
the sun from burns
cool breeze
she shuts the world and breathes
deeply, slowly

are you there?
are you there, my friend?
will you catch her when she falls?
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Need-motive-value [Sep. 1st, 2010|06:48 pm]
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Oh i did something wrong again. Its me again.
In maslow's hierachy, maslow says you only focus on one type of need before you go on to fulfill the next need. But its wrong, because i'm trying to fulfill as many needs as possible without dying. And maslow forgot to put one need that is just below the love need - the having to score for exams need. That's a need to fulfill and a priority to put into place before you can focus on other stuff in your life.

So suck it up, fuckers.

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(no subject) [Aug. 31st, 2010|05:31 pm]
 SCHOOL'S OVER.
so tiring omg. i'm going to miss all the waking-up-late days, cabbing to school, calling joween/nabs/liyliy and asking where they are so that we can all be late together, the foodcourt 6 food. sigh sigh sigh hahaha.
internship starts on the 18th of october, and i'll be working at faith acts with amanda. cant wait, but i'll hate the 9am workdays, and travelling during the morning rush hours. :(





 
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